I think I thought you were someone else...
Part of me is relieved. I cannot abide liars. I do not judge you. I do not hate you. I am not mad. I'm just disappointed in a relationship I thought was based on our ability to be completely honest with one another. I held up my end of the bargain, but it seems you have fallen short, as we, as humans, are bound to do. I don't give up on this friendship, you've got my loyalty and I've got your back, but I have a different perspective now. And I realize I need to rebuild that barrier between us because I don't trust you on all levels anymore. All I want is for you to be happy. Truly happy. All I can see is this overwhelming sadness and confusion in your eyes. You're so lost. It's enough to make me cry. I leave for Oregon in a few days. I'm excited on so many levels. Good timing for an escape from work, my day to day existence, my petty little problems and stresses. It'll be comforting to see family and old friends and to be traveling wit...