I don't know just where I'm going... but I'm gonna try for the kingdom if I can...
Wow, this whole blog experiment sure didn't work out quite the way I planned it. My intention was to force myself to write at least once a week, and now look at me... I am still struggling to find words that fit how I feel, words that make any sense to at least myself... I just want to ramble for awhile I guess... That's all I can do. I can't find a subject in my head that's worth thinking about too long... I'm still running in circles, so stressed I can't sleep... I tell myself and others it's because of my job, but really, I know what the problem is and there's no fixing it. At least nothing I've done in the last five years has made much of a difference. I don't know how to detach myself from things and people that aren't creating a positive reality in my life.... I just keep quiet lately and suck it all up. I'm tired of crying and feeling sorry for myself when this whole situation is entirely my own fault. I have these unrealisti...