If it's truth that you're looking to find, it is nowhere outside of your mind...
It's almost time. Two days. I'm freaking the fuck out. I know I should be excited but I can't quite get there. I feel like a kid leaving home for the first time. Even though I didn't grow up here, I didn't go to high school or grade school here... I feel like I'm leaving everything I've ever known... i guess I did began a journey here. And it sounds cheezy, but I feel like this was the place I was reborn, started a new life with a clean slate. This is the first place where I've felt like it was home for me. To think of leaving? It gives me so much anxiety. I have so much fear. Really, I don't know if I've never felt so scared in all of my life. And I'm not really sure what it is that I'm afraid of. I feel like I've been pretty good at wearing the mask, but every time someone asks if I'm excited or how things are going with moving, I get so angry. I mean, ANGRY. And anger is not an emotion I typically feel on the reg...